Tuesday, May 24, 2011

For Mindy Dawn Schwering August 4, 1978 to forever

Love is a nose
so don't pick it
sometimes kind
brutally wicked

It's also a rug
disguised as a door mat

Standing on this love
came a knock on the door
I fell to the floor

I didn't need to drink anymore
I wondered what I had in store..
with a twist of the knob
and a leveling of eyes

to my dismay a horrible surprise
it was Kennedy or maybe Bill Bellamy
could it be? From MTV?

Can I come in and have a drink
it took only a second for me to think.

A booming NO! was thrust
like a Q-tip into ear...
Have I made myself clear

Kennedy, Bellamy
don't come to me
don't you see

When your generation got old
my generation got sold

You sold it to a soda company
you sold it to a video game

you sold it for profit
you sold it for fame

you're given no choice
a drink you shall have
come in, come in, to my bachelor pad

Make yourself at home
as I concoct you a brew
and that they did

flipping through pages
of stolen out of date
magazines from various doctor's offices
in the immediate area

A pinch of that
a dallop of this
to finish off this drink
about half full of piss

How bout some spit
no how bout some shit

I stolled in the room
as tall as a skyscraper
as wide as King Kong

Could I have been wrong?
Here
 drink up, drink up

Your drink will get warm if
you wait too long...

With a smile as wide as a Kansas sky
I looked at them in each of their beady little eyes

Gulp
Gulp
Gulp
they opened up their throats
If I was drinking surley
I would croak

But croak they did not
and live they still do

Still leaders of a circus
disguised as a zoo...

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Home book 1 5/17/2011 9:38pm

My mistakes..Earthquakes...
Dogs tred Great Lakes
for life's preservation sake...

WEBBED TOES
PADDLE PAWS

For a chance for breath to take
Before the day was done, before you waked.

The night before, you were baked
Your mistakes... echo earthquakes

Like the brain that you bake...
Fri. Sat... Sunday's a waste.

Home Book 1 5/14/11

These poems are not selling
what else shall I do.

Break your face to ask your tastes
Phenominia... Swine flu....

If theres a pill than please take it,
the chemist a corporation.
They made it for the take of it.
Your emancipation
doesn't require
recommendation

My rhyme is off
I tossed off my stuff

You drop Big words
and dogs drop dog turds...

If Satan is a dick
than Jesus is a pussy
We kidnapped a girl
we called her "Juicy Lucy"

I'm an artist, I'm a baby...
...All your sure thoughts
                         are for me
                             all just maybes..

And yes I am lazy
or just a little bit crazy...

...My memories are hazy
before cancer Patrick Swayze
Road House Point Break
Extra money, Ruth Chris' Steak...


Road Book 3 1.1

Hell bent boogie bolivard
Hell bent for leather...
laughter...
brazen faced debauchery...

Keen observation maybe made
by imperfect vision.

Boastful boom shackle...
Cereal bowl crackle...

Wild,
set stage on wet streets...
visable heat
rise knee high...

Distinguished and deminishing...
Young,
Driven,
Menecing...

Candycoated Dream

So it's over
it's done..

She's here to stay and I guess so am I.

he's asleep, I awake
the difference is now one and the same...

You snore... I scream...
...my candy coat dream...

That portrayal you've become accustom to is now what it was in the
beginning
NULL
VOID

That lie, that cheat,
deception I bellow.

It's done...

Once again I'm alive...
Either you love me or hate me
because I happen to be the channel
you stopped on
after your work...

Your work is every ones work...
Your job the sheep
mine the herder...
your quest retirement...
mine is further...

Road Book 1.2 1995?

You make me wasted
know your doubt
feel the warmth
once
fuck the world
or
war

I'm still old enough to distinguish,
young enough to revile in it
bathe or bath in it

Let the warm bubble bathed water
run through the short stubble hair on my face and neck
down onto the long curly hair on my chest
protecting my heart...

Mad cherubs beat their plumped
feet against the top of the clouds
my clouds...
my air...
my fire... my land... my god...

You and I are the controlled substance.
sub stance, a dance...
the demon in my pants

I need a stiff drink
a cold shower
a mind blow
big yellow flower

If I were an artist, I'd paint it.
An orator I'd speak on it.
A fighter, fight it.
A lover, love it

But the butts have it and I lose
even before my kicks are laced
to race...
save face..

A hemorrhaging of ideas
so for now I'll whisper these letters
to myself and my
corduroy book...

Road book 1.1 1995

It's the marauding massacer...
The Masterpiece
A faster piece
of faster ass
       a soul force blast...

I sat in a greasy spoon
when asked for my order
by a pink and lace clad southern Ohio resident
no less it's Tammy I entertained myself..

" I'll have the Pop Tarts."
Now she was in on my plan.
"We don't have Pop Tarts."
she said through the popping and cracking
of a juicy fruit wet dream..

"No, I've brought my Pop Tarts
 your only role in my plan of plans,
is the chef."
She seemed confused, her crack, her pop,
her white trash slop it now did stop.
Her breast made her name tag tilt
it said Tammy right on
the top.

I said " You have toast do you not?"
as the curled smoke was evicted from my long since
dormant nose.

"Yes"
a crack, a pop
" I order toast,
you will go in back omit the bread
Pop Tarts in then bring back my snack."

She put her calloused working woman's hand on her hip
that she had just thrust to her left or to her right
replied I think just to spite
"I don't think I'm allowed to do that."

My nostrils flared
my forehead creased
only a strawberry tart could make this cease

Behind my belt, I had my heat
I handed it to the table and folded my paws
on still stained platform or table
not stable

A wibble, a wobble
she filed, I smiled...
To the back she went
and so did my rod...

We are all afraid of equal judgement

I've kept it to myself
Telling anyone who would listen...


Binding clutched tight to chest
Bullhorn Blaring...
Bullet Magnet Vest...


...Selective distribution to only the like minded...
Delusions of grandeur
but oh so shortsighted...


I'm pushing you out of the nest
let the eggs fall where they may
I'm giving you to the world
and so afraid of what she'll say...


Oh so uber macho... No, a twink style gay...
Its good and its bad
In that way, it goes both ways...